sense of belonging

it's been a long time since i last posted something... nothing much has happened so far... except tht college has started, it has been raining cats n dogs lately, the new subjects r a major headache n so on...

ok ok... main topic.. sense of belonging... everyone has a sense of belonging somewhere... a place tht they feel they belong there, a part of the group in tht place.. just like primary or secondary school... u hv been studying there for so many years... u know tht plc like the back of ur own hand... u feel tht welcoming feeling of familiarity in tht plc... tht plc where so many things has happened is full of memories whether good or bad... up n downs, u still feel tht u belong there...

u hv friends, family n relatives in tht plc which makes u feel so warm n welcome... u hv a sense of belonging there, where everyone's happy 2 c u... even if they hv just met u yesterday...
but yet again... life's not a bed of roses... u can go to a certain plc for years n yet, feel no sense of belonging there... u feel tht u dun fit in anywhere inside it... every time u walk in, the feeling of emptiness envelopes u, making u think tht u wanna get over with the things u wanna do quickly n leave... no sense of belonging whtsoever... all this while, no matter wht, u willingly believe tht this is where i belong... but all is not returned when the ugly reality sinks in... the horrible truth is revealed when u finally overlook ur own believe to find nothing but an empty shell...

there is no warmth, no feeling of welcome, no sense of belonging n all these r replaced with jealously, spite, hatred n own selfishness... just waiting to c when others will fall so tht they can have a good laugh... always thinking tht they r better than others... turning their backs on others who r in trouble, unwilling even to ask how r u doing? avoiding s if these ppl has some kind of incurable diease... sigh...

so many years s friends, do these years mean nothing to u guys? just because of ur own selfishness, u do things on purpose to hurt another... just because of ur own jealously, u will go all out to destroy another's life... y? wht has tht person done to u? y can't u leave tht person alone? u hv ur own world to live in n the other person has his/her own world to live in... y do u wanna go n disturb? is destroying another's life make u feel better? or seeing another fall please u?

so many questions left unanswered.......... but can anyone answer them?