while recovering from a broken heart
i decided to leave the past behind and start anew
bringing in new things & ppl into my life
making it a whole new world for myself
in this brand new world i was creating
i met you
cheeky, funky, cheerful, funny, intelligent, cute
u can come up with the craziest ideas
it felt so good talking to you
you make me feel most comfortable
n i feel so safe just standing next to you
you became part of my new world
helping me create it
filling in the gaps that i did not manage to fill
writting out those empty pages
as we worked together, we became friends
everytime i always think
when is our next activity together
be it in a group or just alone
i m fine with either
bt soon reality sets in
how can i actually fall for you?
our worlds are 2 far apart
you work in a totally different field than i
the frens you mix with is definately from the same field
where do i fit in?
i am also no where near your requirements
stupid, airheaded, nt pretty, nt sexy
just a plain jane
i can only watch you from afar
i never knew what was my position in your heart
my only guess is
i'll be nothing more than someone that will run errands
and someone that you will call when u need something
other than that i am just an insignificant nothingness in your heart
i tried and tried to lock those feelings away
surpressing it with all my might
hoping it may never resurface again
i started a relationship with a person
who loves me more than i love him
he became someone of great importance to me
soon i managed to return his feelings
we had plenty of good times together
unforgettable ones
sweet ones
sour ones
all those memories have become of those i cherish the most
bt i shuld realize something as well
paper can't wrap fire forever
the more time i spent with the other
the more the feeings came seeping out again
those times i spent with him gazing at the stars
when he said he bored
accompanying him to send a fren back
helping him do certain stuff
when we were alone in the car
he wud tell me funny stories about his past
share with me his experiences
at times i jus wished that the ride with him
will never end
i feel so safe with him just standing beside me
when it rains i m with him under the umbrella
when the lightning strikes i m holding his arm
i really feel so safe
so safe that i nvr wanted to let go
good things must come to an end
my partner got a job transfer overseas
and asked me to go with him n marry him
my fiance went ahead of me to prepare the stuff
therefore i told him that i m resigning and leaving the country
his shock was unexpected
he was shocked and upset
on the day of departure
my heart was terribly heavy
wishing that i could see him again or even give him a hug
deep down i did not want to leave
but i could not bring myself to say it
or to betray my fiance
he is someone that i can never betray
just before boarding
you rush towards me and held my hands
asking me a question
'have you ever had any feelings for me?'
i smiled at him and gave him my pendrive
inside has everything u need to know
4 years to this very day
i never saw him again
but i still miss him when i look at all the old photos
videos of our group activities
i heard from a friend back in my home country
that he still did not get married
nor has a girlfriend
but he developed a strange habit
of listening to a particular song everyday
the very same song without fail
the song that i gave him
if i could turn the clock back
i will have confessed to you back then
tell u all that i wanted to tell u
tell u how much i loved you
maybe we would have had a different ending
maybe we could be in each others arms right now
two people from two different worlds
in love with each other
but no hope of ever being together
living in regret of not doing what we were supposed to do
i decided to leave the past behind and start anew
bringing in new things & ppl into my life
making it a whole new world for myself
in this brand new world i was creating
i met you
cheeky, funky, cheerful, funny, intelligent, cute
u can come up with the craziest ideas
it felt so good talking to you
you make me feel most comfortable
n i feel so safe just standing next to you
you became part of my new world
helping me create it
filling in the gaps that i did not manage to fill
writting out those empty pages
as we worked together, we became friends
everytime i always think
when is our next activity together
be it in a group or just alone
i m fine with either
bt soon reality sets in
how can i actually fall for you?
our worlds are 2 far apart
you work in a totally different field than i
the frens you mix with is definately from the same field
where do i fit in?
i am also no where near your requirements
stupid, airheaded, nt pretty, nt sexy
just a plain jane
i can only watch you from afar
i never knew what was my position in your heart
my only guess is
i'll be nothing more than someone that will run errands
and someone that you will call when u need something
other than that i am just an insignificant nothingness in your heart
i tried and tried to lock those feelings away
surpressing it with all my might
hoping it may never resurface again
i started a relationship with a person
who loves me more than i love him
he became someone of great importance to me
soon i managed to return his feelings
we had plenty of good times together
unforgettable ones
sweet ones
sour ones
all those memories have become of those i cherish the most
bt i shuld realize something as well
paper can't wrap fire forever
the more time i spent with the other
the more the feeings came seeping out again
those times i spent with him gazing at the stars
when he said he bored
accompanying him to send a fren back
helping him do certain stuff
when we were alone in the car
he wud tell me funny stories about his past
share with me his experiences
at times i jus wished that the ride with him
will never end
i feel so safe with him just standing beside me
when it rains i m with him under the umbrella
when the lightning strikes i m holding his arm
i really feel so safe
so safe that i nvr wanted to let go
good things must come to an end
my partner got a job transfer overseas
and asked me to go with him n marry him
my fiance went ahead of me to prepare the stuff
therefore i told him that i m resigning and leaving the country
his shock was unexpected
he was shocked and upset
on the day of departure
my heart was terribly heavy
wishing that i could see him again or even give him a hug
deep down i did not want to leave
but i could not bring myself to say it
or to betray my fiance
he is someone that i can never betray
just before boarding
you rush towards me and held my hands
asking me a question
'have you ever had any feelings for me?'
i smiled at him and gave him my pendrive
inside has everything u need to know
4 years to this very day
i never saw him again
but i still miss him when i look at all the old photos
videos of our group activities
i heard from a friend back in my home country
that he still did not get married
nor has a girlfriend
but he developed a strange habit
of listening to a particular song everyday
the very same song without fail
the song that i gave him
if i could turn the clock back
i will have confessed to you back then
tell u all that i wanted to tell u
tell u how much i loved you
maybe we would have had a different ending
maybe we could be in each others arms right now
two people from two different worlds
in love with each other
but no hope of ever being together
living in regret of not doing what we were supposed to do
wow, imagine if it was real.. how dramatic or how sad it would be.. 2 lovers separated by fate never to be together. *sob
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