arghh!! i have been procrastinating yet again. sheesh... been a mth since my last post. i just downloaded the google chrome abt 2 hrs ago. pretty fun.. i hv a hatsune miku skin as well. hehe.. all the hatsune miku skins blue color is nice..

ahh wht hv i been up too for the past 1 mth? plenty of things. i started attending more and more of SJAOG services n activities. even Shubat's invited. lolz.. it feels nice to be sincerely accepted by strangers rather than to c fake smiles of ppl u hv known almost all ur life. its a very good change tho.

i posted on my fb status, i hated saturdays. sigh... 2 dun expect my 2 grand aunts to get my meaning tho. yea till today i seriously hate saturdays. they were giving me all tht crap abt Sabbath day n i shuld call it a delight. oh plz spare me. what i have been through nearly all my life, i hardly can call the Sabbath a delight anymore. my kids, i dun think i want them to attend TJC tho. i do not want them to suffer as i have. the taste of being jeered at, being laughed at, being called a weirdo, and a cult is more than enuf. to last me a life time. i want all that to change when it comes to my kids time. they need not walk the same way i did. they have a choice.

speaking of this, i really do wonder wht is goin on in Ken's mind tho. he asked me to pray and ask the Lord abt us and think abt us in the long term. hmmm... yet he doesnt want anyone to knw that we are together n all. sigh.. i really do wonder what's goin on in his mind. ching yen did ask tho, y didnt he make it official n all seriously i couldnt answer that question. only Ken can answer that. well, the only reason i can think of is tht the both of us are nt ready to let other ppl knw. i did over hear him mentioning to his fren over the phone, 'should confirm by november or december' was that what he actually had in mind all along? he has been asking me abt wht i wanna do when i have kids, would i stop working or continue? i hv a feeling tht i can c where this is going n all, honestly i was quite pleased tho.

ok ok enuf of all these stuff. i hv nw rather heavy responsibilities in coll. to be the vice prez of MMAC and also the Sec for CF. Mel is one prez i dun mind going all out to support. bt daren, sigh, like Nic Cheah said, God bless the club n all of us who are going to babysit him. my term as vice prez will start officially nex sem and my term as sec has already officially started. lots of activities coming up especially CF. camp is coming soon on the 28th - 30th may 2010. not decided to do in melaka or pd or in genting. hope they decide soon. time is running short and exams are so near. sigh..

n yea, CF committee will be working thro out the holidays to promote the camp.