depressing

sigh... here i m again, to complain, to sigh, to scream.... wht ever tht can come thro my mind...

y m i here again?? yup correct... the magical keyword... P A R E N T S!!!!! ZEN ZEN WAKARIMASEN!!

i really feel like a rare species tht is gonna cease to exist soon. its really depressing to have parents like mine... annoying, irritating, noisy, they practically wanna poke their noses into every god damn thing u do... sighhhhhh... asking for transport to the station, asking for a simple thing like a change in ur perfect plan for jus this week, it must be discussed for at least 15mins.. it must be thought about.. wht the hell is wrong in taking me to the station n then u can go do wht ever the fcuk u wanna do? no it must be this way, no it must be that way... to me i say screw u.. just a half hour delay can kill u... when i say i'll take my self there, u dun allow, ask u to drive lorrrr then if tht pleases u... grumbles n complaints is all i hear... u have me between a rock n a hard place... no place to breath at all...

i will nvr forget wht were ur actions during my fren's wedding.. grumbles and complaints... u keep on asking me, y didn't i bring my bf along wit me, instead of asking them to sit there? i shove it back to ur damn face, u dun allow me to have 1, u have to swallow everything instead.. with that, ur 'sweet' temper comes on n shouts at me, get angry at me, show ur stupid reaction to me... nicely u can tell me u dun wanna hear abt it... WTF!! then dun bring it up in the FIRST PLACE! i will nvr forgive u for wht u did then... especially it was a wedding of a really good fren..

the weight on my shoulders has become quite unbearable... i thought i could take it... as i go along, the weight is pulling me down n helping me eliminate those ppl that i do nt wanna lose... thanks to them, i hv lost quite a few of them... a fren once told me, run away frm home... show them that they can't control ur life forever... ya i knw... like i havent tot of tht... bt i need the $$ to finish my education..

for once in my life, i wud really like to enjoy with my frens without time constraint... come n go as i please, without having to give the frens phone numbers n addresses... at times ppl complain my parents dun care abt me... i wud switch anytime... i honestly wish that they wouldnt care abt me anymore... only give the $$ to finish my studies... i really wish frm the bottom of my heart that they wouldn't give a damn abt me...

i m really tired... so tired that i wish i cud jus fall into a deep sleep n leave all these behind.. at least when i close my eyes, there's no 1 there to tell me no or wht to do... bt if i fall into this never ending slumber, SOMEONE will nvr forgive me...